Alone, Thank You! ❌

I fight my battles alone, thank you! ❌

I don't know why I'm ever surprised when people disappoint me. When there's things I literally can't do on my own and I'm literally begging people to help me. And they just think I'm being childish and unrealistic. Like I'm exaggerating every single time. 💥

That's why from a kid I've learned to fight my own battles, zip up my emotions, zone out of the conflict and pretend I'm okay. Pretend I'm strong. Pretend I'm capable of doing things. Pretend like I don't care. Well, eventually I do stop caring.... I block out every emotion so well I can literally forget you ever existed. Don't blame me, you were the ones who hurt me that bad I can't even remember any nice things you've ever said or done. I can't even remember you ever loving me and people have to remind me that you actually did. I can't help it. I had to survive! ❌

So now I've got new battles to fight on my own. I tried so hard to move so I could start fresh and actually make something of myself but apparently my life purpose is to get beaten down again, as usual. Let people see the weak version of me because I can't thrive where I'm at - I can only survive. I've only ever survived. I've either been treated like an illiterate child or someone who is faking everything I'm ever going through. 😬

But yeah, keep your compassion to yourself as usual. Keep your opinions. Keep your kind words. Keep your valuable time. Keep your idiot version of me in your head. I'll do what I've always done. I'll fight my battles on my own, thank you. ❌